Time

If there’s time, then there’s time to turn things around.
If there is a tomorrow, then there is hope for today.

You keep telling me that things are going to take time, and I think you believe I just want everything to be fixed right away.

I don’t. It took a long time to bring us to the point where we are at today, and I know it is going to take awhile for things to be trusted again.

I broke your trust by not being the husband you needed me to be, and I have to earn it back.

But I want things to take time so we can ensure everything that needs to be addressed is addressed. So you can feel appreciated, and loved, and understood, and respected, and cared for.

Yes, I want to hold your hand and play with your hair. But you’re not there yet.

Yes, I want to give you all of the compliments I can and spoil you with gifts. But you’re not there yet.

When you are there, you will let me know. I know you will. Our communication has been so great lately, and it’s only going to get better. I know you will tell me the things that need to be said.

I have to give you time to see that I am not the person I used to be, and that I never will be again.

I have to give you time to heal.

I have to give you time to figure out what it is that YOU want.

And I have to give myself time to heal.

And I have to give myself time to earn your trust, and not beg for it.

And I have to give myself time to show you that I can be nurturing, and supportive, and attentive, and engaged, and present.

We have time. And we are still giving each other our time. So let’s take things slow and focus on the here and now. I can not predict the future, and neither can you. I don’t know if we end up together in the end, but what I do know is that if I rush you and do not do this right I will push you away forever.

So take your time, dear friend.

I’ll be here becoming your best friend. I’ll be here becoming our children’s role model. I’ll be here showing how much love I can give.

“You can’t make up for lost time. You can only do better in the future.” – Ashley Ormon